Resolution

So I know that new years resolutions might be kinda stupid sometimes, but I'm going to make two that I'm going to try my best to keep. From now on I'm going to start loving myself for who I am, and have good self-esteem (but not so much that I'm full of myself or anything), no matter what stupid or embarrassing things I might do, no matter if anyone makes fun of me, no matter if anyone says I'm not pretty, no matter what. I'm not perfect, and I'm going to be happy about that. That's the way God made me, and I am perfect in his eyes. Even though I may not see it most of the time, God does, so I am happy with the way He made me. I'm also going to try to make sure I don't make anyone feel like I did. I'm going to try to make sure what I say doesn't make them feel bad about themselves, I'll need a little help with this since I like to joke a lot and don't realize that what I said might have hurt someone until after I say it, even if I don't mean it. I've come to realize that I do this a lot sometimes. And if I do say something and realize it might have hurt someone, I'm going to apologize. I have a hard time apologizing sometimes, but I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want anyone to feel like I did. I want people to love themselves and not be brought down by other people, especially me. And I will try with all the power in me to keep these resolutions.

~Tonya

Family time?

So, I haven't ranted in a while, and let me tell you now this is going to be rant city right now. So, don't feel obligated to read this, I just need to get it out....

You know how you can always tell who the favorites are? Well it's not me. Why is it that I'm always the one who seems to do something wrong? Even when I'm not doing anything! People wonder why I don't like going to Indiana to see my dad's side of the family...and this is why. It's like I can't get rid of the child persona that I was labled with when I was 11. My Grandmother is a control freak and I'm always the one who seems to mess up her style...or to say I'm the only one who gets stuff said to her about it. I like to do things at my own pace, and apparently it doesn't quite work with my grandmother's. I'm freakin 18. I'm freakin in college, but apparently I can't be trusted not to mess something up by my grandparents. I always try to mind my own business when I'm here. I don't like to talk very much. I keep to myself drawing, reading, etc. Yet I'm always the one who does something. Can you tell me how that's possible?! Cuz I sure cant. Times like these I wish I was more outspoken. Not that I don't love my dad's side of the family, and not that I don't know that they love me, and maybe it's because I only see them once a year...I don't know. I just hate that I'm the ONLY one who feels like I can't do anything around here. Like I'll always be the 11 year old kid who gets in trouble for doing something I didn't even mean to do. I wish I could just hole up somewhere....

Again sorry for ranting....You're a good friend if you actually read all of this.

~Tonya

Kiss Me (The song...don't really kiss me.)

Was bored tonight, had to get out my energy in some way. Here's the outcome.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4syc-aW3hz4

Yes, I'm aware that I'm singing quietly. I have a semi-sore throat, so that's my excuse.

P.S. - This is like the only song I know on the uke, because I really love this song and I listened to it a lot as a kid. Seriously, a LOT!

Re-do??

Okay, so I know I haven't posted in forever and a day. I'm surprised I haven't been kicked off yet haha! BUT, I need opinions. I am thinking about re-doing my own personal blog. Making a whole new one since I haven't posted on my other one in FOREVER!!! This time I would try to post on it as often as I can. What do you think? Should I do it or no? Would anyone read it if I posted?

Need. Encouragement. Now.

Well, to be honest, I've just really been down in the dumps lately. I don't really have any excuse to be, I just haven't really felt that great. It's mainly just this way when I'm at home, because my friends always make me cheerful, but it's like the moment I get home, all happiness exits and I just feel horrible. I keep getting to the point of tears over nothing, and I basically am just moping around my room most of the time.

I mean, I've been this way before, but the fact that it's lasted more than a couple of days really sucks. Just say a prayer for me when you can.

-Kirstin

What's New With Puma

1. I'm such a huge klutz. I wonder why God intended for me to have such trouble doing everyday normal things. I fall down the stairs on a regular basis, I run into things, I trip over nothing, I hit my head on our ceiling beams, etc. Take tonight for example.

I was at the park. My brother, my boyfriend, and myself were standing outside of my car, preparing to say our farewells. As Jesse and Ryan were standing off to the side saying goodbye, I took that time to straighten back up my reclined driver's seat. Dummy me leaned in much too far and pulled the lever, thus making the seat swing up FAST and smacking me hard right in the shnoz!

It hurt sooo bad, and I honestly thought my nose was bleeding. It's still throbbing at this very moment, and it's been more than 2 hours since I was whacked! Point of this random story? Don't be me.

2. This week is going to be super busy, and I'm looking forward to all of it except for Wednesday. That morning, I will be taking a COMPASS test in Hartsville to see if I can get into LPN classes this January. I am SO SUPER NERVOUS! If ya'll could pray that I somehow manage to get through that test alive and do well, I would greatly appreciate it. I think I'll go study some more after this...

3. I have a $10 iTunes gift card that I have yet to use, because I haven't got a clue as to which songs I want! I mean, sure, there's about a thousand and one that I WANT, but which ones are the ones I need to have right this minute? Choices, choices...Maybe some Nevershoutnever? A little Buddy Holly? Some Jason Mraz, perhaps?

4. I have decided to decorate my computer monitor with all of my old theater tickets. It's pretty sweet looking, not going to lie. In order for me to completely cover the sides though, I'm going to have to go watch some more movies. Sigh. What an expensive decoration!

Adios! -A

Life, and All It's Rad Happenings

Christian friends are the bomb.

It's pretty much the most awesome thing ever to be able to talk to other people about God, what He's been teaching you, and stuff like that. This summer has been so amazing because our youth group is so much closer, and I learn way more stuff at church than I did before. We've gotten to the point where we are actually sharing what God is doing in our lives, and it's SO COOL! I love that almost all of our conversation consists of Godly things. The other stuff we talk about seems so petty and useless, that it honestly bores me and makes me want to leave.

God is so incredibly amazing. 'Nuff said.

-Kirstin