The Good Triumphs

Today definitely had it's ups and downs. Most people typically want bad news before the good news, so I'm going to tell you bad news first. Well, actually I'm just going to vent before I talk about good things!

Bad/Vent Session:
Today was really just a "get on Kirstin's nerves day" at work. It was fine in the morning, but then someone started talking to me about how I flirt a lot with a guy at work because we were joking around one day. Alright, I joke around with EVERYONE. I don't like this guy as any more than a friend, and I treat him the same as I treat everyone else, including the other guys I work with. It really just irked me, because I really try not to flirt with anyone as a rule, because I don't want anyone to be led on. I've been down that road before, and it doesn't end well!

THEN a person I work with was getting on my case about how I wasn't filling the ice containers the right way. Like there's a specific way to fill them!! It got on my nerves, but I just brushed it off like a joke. So I was just like, "It's just ice, it's not like it's important!" And he was like, "You're not important!" Ohhhhh, boy! That made me so angry. I wanted to say something really really mean back, but I just went in the back and ignored him. Ugh, even thinking about it makes me mad.

Good News:
Today work went by REALLY fast. It was the quickest day I've ever worked there. It's like I would look at the clock expecting it to just be like 30 minutes later, but it would actually be 2 hours since I last looked at it!

Some people who come through the drive-thru are really really nice. There's this older lady who comes through a lot, and she's always the sweetest thing even if I do something wrong. She always makes my day! Then there's this other dude who is about 20 years old who comes through almost every day and he ALWAYS asks for ketchup. We always laugh because I remember his ketchup addiction. Today he didn't want any, but I automatically put some in the bag and we just cracked up laughing! He's another one of my favorites! :D

After work I went to the Rivergate mall, and got my favorite drink in the world! It's from Gloria Jeans coffee and it's got cookie in it. It is AMAZING! :D It made my day a billion times better! Then I went home and bought a pair of red TOMS off of the internet. :)

All in all, today was actually a pretty good day, other than the few bad parts. But hey, whaddya expect?

- Kirstin

A Post.

Poor Tuna...why must she be the only one who writes on this blog anymore? Here's an update from mwah.

SO MUCH HAS CHANGED SINCE I LAST POSTED!!! For real, ya'll! For starters, I got engaged. Crazy, right? Trust me, it's hard for myself to believe. Ryan and I got engaged back in November, and it was AMAZING. It will definitely be forever one of the best days of my life.

Of course, getting engaged came with a whole new list of things that need to be added into life, such as house hunting, good jobs, serious planning, extreme money saving, and more. As if that isn't enough, now I've suddenly found my way into a CNA test in a few weeks, and I've got yet another COMPASS test to take next month for LPN school.

Let me tell you; Life is getting hectic. After a lifetime of nothing happening, or even just the past year being filled with taking it slow, this year has started off with a bang and EVERYTHING is happening all at once. I need a house, I want to get married, I'm studying for two different tests, I'm fixing to be working another job, with the aid of my parents I'm looking into how to become eligible to purchase a home, and I'm praying everything works out. It's so stressful!

Sometimes I feel like my brain is just going to burst, and then I won't have to worry about any of this. Here's just so much that needs to be done, and I'm scared that I either won't get it all done, or I'll make a mistake that will ruin everything. It's just so hard to keep everything straight and to keep a cool head about it all.

So there you have it. That's my much needed blog post.

-Luna

Resolution

So I know that new years resolutions might be kinda stupid sometimes, but I'm going to make two that I'm going to try my best to keep. From now on I'm going to start loving myself for who I am, and have good self-esteem (but not so much that I'm full of myself or anything), no matter what stupid or embarrassing things I might do, no matter if anyone makes fun of me, no matter if anyone says I'm not pretty, no matter what. I'm not perfect, and I'm going to be happy about that. That's the way God made me, and I am perfect in his eyes. Even though I may not see it most of the time, God does, so I am happy with the way He made me. I'm also going to try to make sure I don't make anyone feel like I did. I'm going to try to make sure what I say doesn't make them feel bad about themselves, I'll need a little help with this since I like to joke a lot and don't realize that what I said might have hurt someone until after I say it, even if I don't mean it. I've come to realize that I do this a lot sometimes. And if I do say something and realize it might have hurt someone, I'm going to apologize. I have a hard time apologizing sometimes, but I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want anyone to feel like I did. I want people to love themselves and not be brought down by other people, especially me. And I will try with all the power in me to keep these resolutions.

~Tonya

Family time?

So, I haven't ranted in a while, and let me tell you now this is going to be rant city right now. So, don't feel obligated to read this, I just need to get it out....

You know how you can always tell who the favorites are? Well it's not me. Why is it that I'm always the one who seems to do something wrong? Even when I'm not doing anything! People wonder why I don't like going to Indiana to see my dad's side of the family...and this is why. It's like I can't get rid of the child persona that I was labled with when I was 11. My Grandmother is a control freak and I'm always the one who seems to mess up her style...or to say I'm the only one who gets stuff said to her about it. I like to do things at my own pace, and apparently it doesn't quite work with my grandmother's. I'm freakin 18. I'm freakin in college, but apparently I can't be trusted not to mess something up by my grandparents. I always try to mind my own business when I'm here. I don't like to talk very much. I keep to myself drawing, reading, etc. Yet I'm always the one who does something. Can you tell me how that's possible?! Cuz I sure cant. Times like these I wish I was more outspoken. Not that I don't love my dad's side of the family, and not that I don't know that they love me, and maybe it's because I only see them once a year...I don't know. I just hate that I'm the ONLY one who feels like I can't do anything around here. Like I'll always be the 11 year old kid who gets in trouble for doing something I didn't even mean to do. I wish I could just hole up somewhere....

Again sorry for ranting....You're a good friend if you actually read all of this.

~Tonya

Kiss Me (The song...don't really kiss me.)

Was bored tonight, had to get out my energy in some way. Here's the outcome.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4syc-aW3hz4

Yes, I'm aware that I'm singing quietly. I have a semi-sore throat, so that's my excuse.

P.S. - This is like the only song I know on the uke, because I really love this song and I listened to it a lot as a kid. Seriously, a LOT!

Re-do??

Okay, so I know I haven't posted in forever and a day. I'm surprised I haven't been kicked off yet haha! BUT, I need opinions. I am thinking about re-doing my own personal blog. Making a whole new one since I haven't posted on my other one in FOREVER!!! This time I would try to post on it as often as I can. What do you think? Should I do it or no? Would anyone read it if I posted?

Need. Encouragement. Now.

Well, to be honest, I've just really been down in the dumps lately. I don't really have any excuse to be, I just haven't really felt that great. It's mainly just this way when I'm at home, because my friends always make me cheerful, but it's like the moment I get home, all happiness exits and I just feel horrible. I keep getting to the point of tears over nothing, and I basically am just moping around my room most of the time.

I mean, I've been this way before, but the fact that it's lasted more than a couple of days really sucks. Just say a prayer for me when you can.

-Kirstin