You know how you can always tell who the favorites are? Well it's not me. Why is it that I'm always the one who seems to do something wrong? Even when I'm not doing anything! People wonder why I don't like going to Indiana to see my dad's side of the family...and this is why. It's like I can't get rid of the child persona that I was labled with when I was 11. My Grandmother is a control freak and I'm always the one who seems to mess up her style...or to say I'm the only one who gets stuff said to her about it. I like to do things at my own pace, and apparently it doesn't quite work with my grandmother's. I'm freakin 18. I'm freakin in college, but apparently I can't be trusted not to mess something up by my grandparents. I always try to mind my own business when I'm here. I don't like to talk very much. I keep to myself drawing, reading, etc. Yet I'm always the one who does something. Can you tell me how that's possible?! Cuz I sure cant. Times like these I wish I was more outspoken. Not that I don't love my dad's side of the family, and not that I don't know that they love me, and maybe it's because I only see them once a year...I don't know. I just hate that I'm the ONLY one who feels like I can't do anything around here. Like I'll always be the 11 year old kid who gets in trouble for doing something I didn't even mean to do. I wish I could just hole up somewhere....
Again sorry for ranting....You're a good friend if you actually read all of this.
~Tonya
Hey don't let them get you down...don't go hole up somewhere,it would help trust me.It sucks that they are like that,they should love you for who you are,not who they you should be.If you are happy with who are then that is all that matters. You are really freaking sweet.One day they will (hopefully) realize that you aren't that eleven year old girl anymore,and that you have grown a lot since then.I don't think it's fair that they treat you like that,and I'm sorry they do..but I love you chika,you are a really nice and sweet person! Sorry that this so long :P
ReplyDeleteThanks Harlee. I really shouldn't complain so much. It might just be me. But thanks a lot you made me feel better. :) love ya
ReplyDeleteLove ya too :)
ReplyDeleteTonya *says in squeaky voice* . I feel the EXACT same way! Well, not with my Dad's side, but with my Mom's side. She has 4 sisters and a brother, and when ever we get together with my Aunts I feel like they don't have confidence in me. They always tell me that I am SO spoiled. -_- And the first thought that I think of is, "How am I spoiled when I made a comment? Did I complain? NO!" Uhgghh...then they always have to treat me like I'm a kid by making sarcastic comments about what I do and it is so rude. So, I feel your pain sister. :)
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